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Friday, October 17, 2014

Presence


I have been giving a lot of thought lately to the idea of "mindfulness". Interestingly, while I have been mulling over this concept for quite some time, I have not until recently had a term to which I could latch on that defined the direction my thoughts were taking. The basic idea is that for many of us, our minds are constantly scattered in many different directions by the rising tides and endless bufferings of daily life. We do not take (or make) time to focus our minds on one particular task. We allow ourselves to lose sight of the present moment while we lament (or celebrate) the past, or anticipate the future. The present moment is lost in a turbulent sea of various stressors, be they internally or externally imposed. Our mind wanders and the present moment is lost.

I will readily admit that I am not well read in philosophy but I feel fairly certain that there is some line of philosophical thinking that covers recurring motifs and themes in a person's life. The concept of presence - actually being in the present moment - has crossed my radar often. I believe that my foray into long-distance running has only served to heighten my awareness of this idea. If one loses their focus in the present moment in the course of a long run, or allows the mind to wander beyond simply hitting the next short-term goal or target, then the task at hand can seem overwhelming. It may be difficult to comprehend running for 30, 50, or 100 miles or more but when one thinks about running the current 5 mile segment or perhaps making to the next tree, bush, or curve in the trail, the task isn't quite so insurmountable. There are even athletes who run up to 100 miles on a standard 400 meter track. I have a difficult time imagining the kind of focus it must take to remain in the moment for literally hours on end running in circles!

My mind is generally a fractured mess of past, present and future. The inescapable array of daily distractions and obligations seem overwhelming at times, and it's in running that I often find a sanctuary. However, I have progressed to the point that even running provides little solace for me, as running itself has become somewhat effortless. The mind is not really focused on running (unless I am on a technical trail) and as such it is bandied about by the various preoccupations that assail me. I enjoy listening to music when I run as this also allows a mental "break" but I am coming to the realization that this is not the ideal solution, either.

So what is the next step? As I have said in previous posts, my life does not yet mirror the principles that I claim are so important to me. And so, I return to mindfulness. I am sure that I am not giving the concept a fair shake as I have only begun a cursory exploration into what it means and how it can be applied in my own life, both as a part of my running and as a part of "everything else". If I can focus my mind then perhaps I can move incrementally toward becoming the person I want to be. And, of course, the runner I hope to be as well!

Monday, October 13, 2014

Cactus Rose Race Prep

With less than 2 weeks to go until I step off on my next adventure, the Cactus Rose 100 in Bandera, Texas, I have begun what I would consider my first day of logistical race prep. I had already started reading online race reports to familiarize myself with some details about the course and to find out what past finishers had done well (or not-so-well) in their races. So in that regard, I am somewhat familiar with a few of the key features of the course - hills, rocks, sotol cactus, friendly volunteers, unmanned aid stations - but these were only the basics, and while helpful, most race reports don't focus on the course itself in a lot of detail. Now, I need to review the specifics of the course - aid station locations, the elevation profile, and the like.

The beginnings of a game plan are beginning to take shape in my mind. Right now I feel very good. My training has gone well and I have a solid base from the several races I have done so far this year. Yet as I review the course profile I am forced to quell any overconfidence I might feel as I come face to face with the fact that in the course of my training I am not able to get much hill work in, a deficiency which could be quickly and painfully exposed in a race like this:




Needless to say, Cactus Rose has my full attention.

I am not at the point in my running life when I feel that I am ready to call my shots, so I am not going to necessarily suggest that I want to beat "X" time; however, I do hope to finish in the 24-hour range. I believe this is possible given my current level of fitness (although the course may have a thing or two to say about that). With a very busy racing season upcoming - including the back-to-back Bandera 100k and Rocky Raccoon 100 in January - my main focus is, of course, to finish. I have 36 hours in which to complete this task and while I don't intend to use that much time it is reassuring to know that I have it. I also want to finish on a strong note and not completely destroy myself, so pacing and patience will be extremely important. 

What I am doing now is breaking the course down into sections. For ultramarathons, that means looking at the course in blocks from aid station to aid station. This will allow me to focus on my nutrition - a weakness in my previous longer races at Miwok and Rocky - and make sure that I am prepared for the upcoming section from a mental standpoint. Since my crew for this race will be minimal (if I have one at all), it will be very important that I am ready to get through aid stations without much delay. I don't want to rush, but I don't want to waste time, either. So organization and efficiency will be important. Breaking the course down in this way also makes the 100 mile distance seem less overwhelming. Aid stations are typically between 5-7 miles apart. 

Once I have become familiar with the course, or as familiar as I can become given the resources I have available, the focus will turn to race nutrition. That will be the subject of another post. But for now, back to my charts and maps...

Friday, October 10, 2014

Growth and Change



In creating a blog for myself, one thing that I did not intend to do is to spend time commenting on or critiquing other peoples' blogs. As far as I am concerned everyone is entitled to their feelings on whatever subject or subjects about which they choose to write. Yet I have noticed a theme on a couple of running-related blogs I frequent and in some podcasts I have heard in relation to the sport of ultrarunning - or more specifically, how its past relates to its present and, possibly, its future.


I have observed that there are a number of runners in this community who lament the loss of the intimacy and fringe-nature of the sport. There was a day when races were a low-key, low-cost affair. Finisher swag often included a chair or a bench to sit on and a pat on the back. Race organization would consist of a loose chain of individuals who would promote an event largely by word-of-mouth. The so-called "elites" of the sport were readily accessible at races, would drink a beer with you after a race, and often work aid stations, pace, and welcome back-of-the-pack finishers at races as they ran, walked, or crawled across the finish line. It was a sport that lived on the margins, to be sure, and many of the crazy personalities who inhabited it over the years have unintentionally become its "legends". 

As the years have passed, the sport has grown exponentially. This is due to a myriad of factors - namely, individuals who have drawn attention to their accomplishments in endurance races, social networks that have connected runners across the country and around the world, and the proliferation of online videos and movies that have chronicled the feats of the ultrarunning community set against the backdrop of spectacular landscapes and almost indescribable natural beauty. The numerous books that have been written about the lives of endurance athletes have become standard bookshelf material for those of us who aspire to populate the same trails over which these great runners left their mark. 

With this growth has come some unintended consequences. Well-known races that were once easy to enter are now oversold well in advance, and have even been forced to enact lotteries in selecting participants. Those that did not cap entries often found themselves overwhelmed with participants who were not prepared for the challenges they were going to face; further, some did not display proper etiquette out on the trails. Corporate sponsors have become the norm, promoting elite athletes who can train year-round for events that offer ever-growing financial incentives for top finishers. Large corporations bought out iconic races from the local founders and directors, and some of the "folksy" feel and homegrown support around these burgeoning races began to vanish. And (much to my chagrin), trail running has even been featured in a cheap beer commercialUltrarunning has become big business.

When I learned about the sport just a couple of short years ago after reading the seminal ultrarunning book "Born To Run", I felt as if I had found my calling. I rediscovered my love of running, realizing that there was a brand new world for me to explore. I watched every video on the subject I could find and was enamored by the online adventures of Anton Krupicka, Sebastian Chigneau and Kilian Jornet. I could not wait to enter my first race and knew that, should fate smile upon me, this was to become the primary pursuit of any and all my free time. 




I myself am grateful for those who shared the sport over various media and opened my eyes to the possibilities of getting off the roads and running long distances in nature. I've been challenged to do more than I ever thought I could and in turn feel as if I have found an activity that is well-suited to my personality. While there are those who would look down upon the videos, books, and stories as shameless self-promotion (and maybe some of it is), I can't thank enough the runners who embraced this media as a way to share the sport with me. I have been hooked since the day I saw this in an airport bookstore:




As a relative newcomer to the sport, I hear what the veterans are saying and I take their concerns to heart. There is a lot that can be read into them if one takes a moment to look below the surface. Trail races and ultras have always placed tremendous emphasis on the value of EVERY participant. Whether in first place or last, trail races celebrate camaraderie in the best sense of the word. Seconds and minutes off of one's time are lost in the hours upon hours spent on a course. Friendships are formed and strengthened out there through the shared effort and unique kind of suffering that only the runner can understand. Further, time on these trails brings one closer to (and in some cases, face-to-face with) nature at it's most raw and unforgiving. If one can't gain a healthy respect for nature and her majesty after spending 30 hours or more wandering through her vast expanses alone with very limited aid and support then it may not be possible to attain it!

Now that I have had the opportunity to participate in a few events myself (as a runner and as a volunteer) I am beginning to understand what the "vets" are talking about. I see it at every race - friendships are formed or renewed, sacrifices are made, experiences are shared - and I am inspired. For my part, I am learning and hopefully putting the best spirit of trail running into practice myself. I make it a point to thank volunteers and go out of my way to help others in any way I can. And I try to smile. A lot. I'm far from perfect - I'm not naturally the most outgoing person in the world - but I try. And I notice a lot of other people trying, too.

Perhaps we may never go back to the fringe-sport mentality that pervaded ultrarunning a decade ago. But there are a ton of fantastic people who have taken to the trails, most of whom I think "get it". I only hope I can be as gracious an ambassador for the sport I enjoy so much as many of them have been. Change can be good, and hopefully the waves of newcomers like me will stop to listen and learn a thing or two from our cagey veteran friends. The next time I'm out there I plan to do just that - preferably with a beer in hand, in a chair, at a finish line.